Wednesday, September 21, 2022

The Dead —The Dubliners, James Joyce

Generous tears filled Gabriel’s eyes. He had never felt like that himself towards any woman, but he knew that such a feeling must be love. The tears gathered more thickly in his eyes and in the partial darkness he imagined he saw the form of a young man standing under a dripping tree. Other forms were near. His soul had approached that region where dwell the vast hosts of the dead. He was conscious of, but could not apprehend, their wayward and flickering existence. His own identity was fading out into a grey impalpable world: the solid world itself, which these dead had one time reared and lived in, was dissolving and dwindling.

A few light taps upon the pane made him turn to the window. It had begun to snow again. He watched sleepily the flakes, silver and dark, falling obliquely against the lamplight. The time had come for him to set out on his journey westward. Yes, the newspapers were right: snow was general all over Ireland. It was falling on every part of the dark central plain, on the treeless hills, falling softly upon the Bog of Allen and, farther westward, softly falling into the dark mutinous Shannon waves. It was falling, too, upon every part of the lonely churchyard on the hill where Michael Furey lay buried. It lay thickly drifted on the crooked crosses and headstones, on the spears of the little gate, on the barren thorns. His soul swooned slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through the universe and faintly falling, like the descent of their last end, upon all the living and the dead.

Monday, February 21, 2022

永不能忘

 才不過十一、二歲, 就要孤身上路去探望外祖母, 先是一小時的海上航程, 繼而是半小時顛簸不堪的車程, 第七號巴士路線沿著香港島西區搖搖晃晃的前進, 途中的景物, 成了少年人記憶裡不可磨滅的印象!
上環儘是專營海味雜貨的南北行, 西環是批發蔬菜生果的地方, 西營盤舊式茶樓林立, 薄扶林道多是破落的舊大宅, 大學堂的莊嚴, 瑪麗醫院的恬靜, 牛奶公司農場的草香... 市區漸漸落在背後, 眼前是鬱綠的山, 曠闊的天空和無邊際的大海, 但最深刻的印像是中途的永別亭。
亭子就築在半山的路旁, 不過是最普通的設計, 原是舊時送殯上山的歇脚處, 亭子下望是青翠的叢林, 重重叠叠一直到山腳下, 一堆大石之後便是大海, 晴天時海天藍成一片, 時有小漁船匆匆來往, 偶然還有遠洋而來的大輪船駛過, 景色美極了, 可是這亭子前的對聯是...
永不能忘, 平素音容成隔世
別無複面, 有緣會合卜他生
這两句對聯給于少年人很大的震撼, 生死無常, 陰陽阻隔, 只有今生罷了, 那裡有來世呢, 寫這對聯的人已經不在, 看著這對聯的少年人, 有一天亦會成長老去終歸不在, 山水與亭子年年歲歲依舊, 歲歲年年人郤不同, 還有什麼好執著呢!
巴士天天載著乘客來來往往, 看到這對聯的人有多少會大徹大悟, , 生命原是一個幻覺, 鄭板橋說得好, 名利竟如何, 歲月蹉跎, 幾番風雨幾晴和, 愁風愁雨愁不盡, 總是南柯。
1999.10.1 加華僑報